this wasn’t racist.
sometimes some men just have a bad day
and kill some women.
the sacredness of multiple identities, dismissed.
justification so nonchalant.
feels like there is no humanity
behind that badge.
i am on fire, every cell,
and thoroughly benumbed.
is this rage?
searing flames bursting outward?
or ice crystals encroaching on my heart?
frenetic, flailing backlash?
or being swallowed whole?
on the brink of avalanche if I try to give it voice?
or stupefied, barely breathing?
both, it seems.
and they know this:
non-white people deserve safety.
women are not disposable.
feels like no one who can
change the deadly falsehoods, will.